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U've gotta love this song oraites. go listen to IM THE LUCKY ONE. Anuar Zain tau. It's so urrrrrggggh, gosh. I'll sing to my future sweetheart, whoever it'll be cos i'm the lucky one to have gotten you. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL! (x

anyways, im sorry amyraa. aku pangsey kau semalam malam. aku rase bingit tibe2 dgn bende nie. heeeessh. and i pangseyyed mrs ular also, at 1am. tssk.

da shooh malas nak type2. off for study. ((:

nadhirah sent me an offline msg which said :

Labels: When nothing goes your way

Labels: If i could go one more time

>My HANDPHONE is SPOILT.
:(
That means I have to get a new phone which is both
:( cos i have to fork out my money & buying a phone annually pisses me off &
:) cos i want a new, SEXY phone and im sick of the buttons of my current phone.

>I'm gonna get $50. this adds up to my savings. like LOLLY LOLLY POP THAT BODY I SEE YOUR COLI IN FRONT OF ME.
:)

>Im out for camp tomorrow.Finally,the BEST medicine for homesickness.
:)

>I planned a dinner for amyraa but she cant make it. awwwwwwwwwww....
:((((((((

>Instead i had dinner with my cutie, YASNIZAH MOHAMED but I saw chrisbrown-wannabe. and guess what? I saw MR BROWN and MRS BROWN. I swear i cant stop thinking of Mrs Brown cos shes dayyyyyyyyyyymm hot. No, she's SEXY despite her age. *droooools*
:)))))))))))))

>I saw my mum cry. But i cant find reasons why.
:

>Im waiting for NADIAH IMRAN. Shes gonna give me reasons to be happy.
:))))

>I love 19november2008. cos i shopped like there's no tomorrow at m'sia. and i ordered CHICKEN TOM YAM. mat tu kasi ayam banyaaaaaaaaaak. i shall remember you.
:))))

Fri was indeed fun but what happened at home later on was hell.

That time when I rode the Singapore Flyer. Look at how excited I am. Oohlala.

Ouch. I accidentally pinched my eye. How stupid can I be?
Very very stupid. Yes. Have you ever pinched your eye? Try it today and see how it feels. Very eee-yurh horh.

I'm a happy happy girl today because I'm going to Nina's and I'm gonna meet everybody's relatives tomorrow at the zoo. The last time I went to zoo was 2006 with my primary school friends. Good times. Gooood times :D

My mummy says we are gonna rent a room in the house to a STRANGER. Oooh. I'm so SCARED. Heh.I don't care as long as the stranger is HOTT. Haha. Diam seyh.

I've been a very very good girl you know, you know. I've lessen my usage of computer and started reading books. I'm a very good girl. And I help around the house you know. Very good Nadhirah. Keep it up :P Lol.

SS-ing is very fun. I've been SS-ing alot lately. Huhu.

This is the marina barrage or in short form, the dam(n). Remember Amyraa the geography or was it EE presentation when you said dam and everybody started laughing beacause they thought it was damn? Good times. Gooood times. LOL :D

Ooooh. And I've found out tat Demi and Selena are best friends. OOh. Coool. And they acted in Barney. Haha.

Last night, when I was sleeping, the music was on and suddenly I dreamt people saying,
Person 1:When is it bad enough.
Person 2:To earn the right to show.
Person 1:How bad should I hurt?
Person 2:How much is enough?
They are actually lyrics to how much by Meg and Dia and I woke up finding out that the song was on. Lol. Cool cool :D

I wanna go pack up now. I'm a very happy girl today. Wooosh :D

Nadhirah larh seyh :DD

Hello.
I guess I'll just update what I wanna update here,
and post something more to myself on my blog aite.
oh me, :D .

I'm so looking forward to schl.
I swear.
I simply cant tahan the feeling like I'm gonna die here.
and when I have the feeling of dying,
I think about the sch stress and all the pain I have to bear at home.
with 2 momoks.
brrr.

so yest I was aiming to be a good girl, anak mithali eh?
I cleaned the toilet fr 1hr, :D oh me, bt my sis just copycat la sey,
while I cleaned the toilet she go vacuum and mop.
and so Mama nagged tht seha did much more thn me.
haw, life sucks.

and oh. okay now I lazy to sign in to me own blog.
so just put it here.
dear stranger,
I told you I'm sorry.
and it was my fault,
but not totally, cos uh ( would you listen anyway? )
but my guilt feeling was swept off
by ur fcuking fcuk off msgs, and I couldnt tahan.
so you used all those stupid words fcukwits use,
now what harge diri were you talking bout girl?
think before you talk can?
only losers use vulgarities when they're mad at ppl.
yes, sore losers.
oh yes, I am growing up :D
are you?

and another one,
I thought you'd agreed being just hi-bye friends with me
long long ago.
so whatsup with you?
if you were okay with it then, why not now?
and if you think I'm immature by ending our 'close-friendship',
I don't give a shit and oh, pardon me.
immature is like someone else,
who finds pleasure collecting enemies ard the world.
but I dont, you know that.
you know I hate having enemies.

biarlah kurelakan segala walau hidupku sebuah tanda tanya mengapa..

hahaha, taufik, I'm coming for you.

so I wanna talk. you don't wanna read, nehmind.
it's gnna be bout me.
ever felt desperate to be real good
and to find perfection in yourself?
it's so not clever, but I had.
and when my acts dont tell whats in my heart,
gosh, ppl all start to dislike me.
and thts so toot.
and yes they ruined me.
who would do such a thing?
I am a barrel of secrets, yes.
but I'm not a wolf in a sheep's clothing.
BAA .
and I act like I cant be bothered what others say,
but man, deep inside it kills.
if only ppl understand my desire to make ppl trust me,
ohh life would be so wow.
I made myself read what others say bout me on my hp.
the first few times, I cried.
Idk why I'm like this okay.
but pls, stop all this horsehit.
who would do such a thing?

I know it's wordy, sorry. :D

dad, she may be the kamelia you want,
but I can't be the anna you see in me.
I'm myself, BAA.

Glow In The Dark - Chris Brown

"i dont know where we are"

p/s : hell yeah, i think im there

"You don't see me
The same no more
It's hard
To see the light with closing doors
Don't treat me like
Like I'm invisible
Your tone with me
It's not the usual
We scream, we fight
Saying things that we both regret
And that's not right
That you could just forget me like that
You've never tried
Always taking the easy route
Always taking the easy route
Never want to work it out "

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"Can anybody see me
See me now?
I'm erased from the crowd
So cold and I don't know how
Find me now"

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"Don't ask why
Before we get too close just let me
Say goodbye
It's easier this way
Don't ask why
Before you ask the question and I
Die Inside
Just let me walk away"

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"All the nights you spent sitting nowhere
Out there on your own
All the nights I waited by the phone
When you were going in alone
And all your different faces
And all your different ways
Are making everything a mess
And all I'm saying is that
I have different places and
All the complications end today"
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apologies to ppl who texted me yest. my dad was flower-powering and stuff, so yeah. WTV MAJOR LOSER.

anyhoos, i've got nth more to say so im out. to read my book and study. CHEERIOS ALL.

dont let that dark cloud hover above you for too long alright, no strings attached no more yearning and stuffs. =D

im out peeeepos.

*yeah, im tired of this*

today today,
oh i was out when i got red-lined. pretty much sucked. kk, i talk as if other girls tk dpt gtu. -.-


soo anyways, tmr its yay yay day. next, i finish reading my book in like 3hrs? coolshit huh? okay, maybe not. i figure im being lame? why am i being lame? cause i forgot what i intended to blog about. tt spells out P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C for me!

oh yesss, i read this freaking ad on a bus. it says :

life comes without a warning sign

nice kannnn, hell yes.

k i dont feel like talking bout tt.

hmmm lets see...

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...
...

oh!

quantum of solace.. is a very action packed movie but i dont get the gist of the movie. plus i dont really like james bond movie. i mean, i think j.bond movies are crap seriously they are. oh i got halau-ed twice for getting in the wrong seat. (actually sengaje punye. HEH ) so yeah, it was a yawn, no not only A yawn. i yawned quite a no. of times plus i ended up looking at my cuz and laughing to myself for nothing. o.O soo i know, crazy.

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k got it.

penantian menyeksa tetapi kemanisannya dirasa. AHA. but i think this applies for certain ppl only. you got wrapped up in love once, and there's no way out. like duh, totally. u love someone and when they're gone u feel lonely and hurt but yet u yearn to play tt game of love.

and feelings u harvested for a long time can vanish in a blink of an eye? pretty much yea. cause hurt and loneliness can eat u up so quick like quicksand.

i think im spouting alot of crap here.

oh yes, i finally get to buy school books this fri
tt means YAY!
i get to study! ;BBBBB YAYNESS!
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i figure the most pathetic thing bout me. when i miss someone, i go emo like fuck. DX when im like soo not suppose to be. if ur smart enough, yeah. i feel like crying right now. pfffft.

okay. i shall come up with smth this instance :


eeeeee, i miss honey !!!!!!! eventhough i know you prolly are missing other people )=

Updates!
I want to update too!
But I got nothing. Boohoo.
I want to shit man. But I can't.
I need yoghurt yes :)

Damn. I'm super fickle minded these days. I want to work but I want freedom and I don't really need money. I want to follow myraa go shopping but I'm scared I'll hurt my mum even when she said it's my choice what to do. Haha. Pathetico. I think it's PMS. Haha. Mcm betul larh tuu.

Malay dance yesterday was da bomb. The SYF item is very gerek. I like Zapin. Very energetic. Oohlala~

I'm so tired of my brother. He keeps telling me to shut up when I ask him a question. It's annoying. I'm just trying to make conversation. Like what's the problem with him?

Man, I lost my respect in him.
Not my brother larh.
Change topic already.

It's like he doesn't leave an impact in my life. All he does is show stupid, bad examples. Sometimes, I just want him to go away. I tried to think positively. Everybody's right. I am lucky to have him but sometimes I don't see why he needs to be here. I need to step into somebody's shoes and see what it's like not having someone like him around because I think that it's much easier to respect him once I've found a reason to. But now, even though it's a must, it's damn hard.

I feel lonely these days. I'm in need of a person. Haha. A person whom I can talk with the whole day and never get tired, a person whom can share some laughs with me. A shoulder to cry on. I never had that particular person my whole entire life. I want to open up to somebody but I haven't found that somebody. No, not yet. I thought you were the one but I was wrong. Well, maybe it's just me. I'm too secretive. Ah, whatever kan.

Those words you said to me
That face I longed to see
Everything so caught up in my mind
But I know for a fact, you cannot be mine

Those nights I could not sleep
And stayed awake counting sheep
Thinking of the possibility that we could be together
To share, compromise and love each other

But good things come and go
I waited but you did not show
Our friendship sadly ended
My hopes and dreams all shattered

It’s hard to accept reality
To be with whom you want to be
But memories do rust
And to move on is the best for us

091108

Nadhirah larh seyh :)
And this time, you and me, we run away :)

my irritating adek. rabiah.
i just woke up.
then we play scissors paper stone modified version.
random. tapi klakar.


im so bored during this holidays.
looking forward to camps.
going to pahang next next wk. 24nov.
and 2dec! wild wild wet!

today is my brother's bdae. muhammad.
who just turn 13.
did not give him anything.
feel bad abt it.
maybe tomoro of smth go find his present.
haha.


went shopping wif nasuha ytd ytd.
went to city and town.
i just know ity and town is 2 separate places kind of.
nasuha somehow become my tour guide. and im e tourist. =D
find stuffs for her prom.
im e one whos getting so excited.
street vs style.
wonder wat our prom gonna be lik.

thinking of wat baju to wear for next yr band concert. (if have one).
heard from ahmad tat band is going to perform at esplanade next yr.
dono true or not. haha.
i veri excited.


i love shoes!

now i noe where to find stuffs.
i mean lik cheap cheap.
coz i always lik cheap cheap stuff.
heels at charles and keith. (not so cheap. but my fav)
pumps at jurong east.
belt at far east plaza.
(im skinny so veri hard to find belt. stretchable belts for me.)


im e type who prefer quantity over than quality.
so imitation vs branded.
i choose imitation! haha.



reach home at 10.30pm.
my mum and dad was like asking gi maner sumer. ade solat tak. gitu.
now i know where to solat at town.
at one of e hotels.
tak salah. royal plaza on scotts.
e hotel veri grand one. LAWA!!
im ALIM!! =D

e bus home was a headache. yada yada.
camwhore siket kat bus.
nasuha was very tired.

hello. guess who I am.
lame la bongok.

okay, it seems like years since I last updated this blog,
and usually I only update my own personal blog,
hehehe, sry for the egoism.
but I'm sacrificing the time for my personal blogging to do blogging here,
so oh, *applause.
shut up.
I was just tryna check if I remember the account and password,
and yes, I do!
oh me, *applause.

I so love namilea nadamy.
sry I talk crap here.
but craptalking is me.

guys, even though next year we won't be in the same class,
and though it won't be the same ever, I hope this blog will still exist.
I hope sbsbs will still be united, just like you guys hope too, I believe.
:D I talk like so WORLD. what's up with goodbyes.
I hate them.

I know, I know I'm lucky.
3/5 of sbsbs is in 3-4.
yahoooo.
shut up.

okay. I don't wanna talk long2,
but here's what I wanna say.

sbsbs,

ILY
ILY
ILY
ILY
ILY
ILY
ILY
ILY
ILY
ILY
ILY
ILY
ILY

and course, I'm gonna miss mirah and myraa.
:D

diam la syiba.

currently, life without internet sucks.
cos got many songs I wanna download.
and hell, I don't even have a memory stick
nor do I have a thumbdrive.
really, pathetic me.

see, I talk crap.

better go now before I crap more.

xoxo,
BAA.

i'll miss this date. i'll remember tonight. thank you my friend. ((:
i'll keep to our promise, our life-long one. that is we'll meet each other amidst our separated lives. And our second's this Friday. 071109. syukur alhamdulillah amin. let's see how much we can catch on eh. and how much you can fattening stuff you can eat eh.

but idk why. i just CANT WAIT. ok fine LOL. i havent made any masterpieces yet. im sorry amyraa. but i can feel the mood's coming.

Labels: But i can't find a way out

Upin dan Ipin So CUTE!! :)
Betul betul betul.



I have no idea what this song is about.
But the beat and voice is nice. Whooooooooo.

I'm alone again at home for 3 days straight.
It's super uber suckish.

Mum just left the house at KL. Don't know what time she's gonna come back. Dad told me he wanted to come home but never came. Brothers? Heck care about them. They'll only come home just to steal my only companion. The computer. Not as if they are gonna spend time with me. How pathetic can I be. I have no friends. I have no life.

French lesson today? Urgh.
The clock is ticking
and I haven't even started packing.
I don't want to freaking go.

It's the most pathetic-est class to attend. My friends ain't coming today. It's so pathetic to stare at the teacher talking jibberish and nod when they look at you, when actually, you don't understand anything. And I'm so lazy to go there. Buena Vista is such a boring place. And it's gonna rain. Awwww~

I dreamt.
Of random stuff.
Maybe not that random.

The setting was at my primary school. Kinda. But in my dream, there were both secondary and primary school friends. Yeah. And there was a ghost in the toilet too. Scary Mary. And I actually spent time with a guy who I think is so merepek from primary school. Ok. That dream was total crap. Flush it down the toilet.



Ain't that cute? Nephew feeding his auntie. Awwwwww~

I want donuts.
Yes I do :)
Bye.

Nadhirah larh seyh :)

"dont say you're sorry

for breaking every inch of my heart"

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i felt like a fool yest. why? maybe you know huh. D=

suddenly, i feel a sad feeling creeping up inside. and its gonna rain, so im gon be off soon. (im afraid of the thunder&lightning, if u dont know) HEH. k sidetracking there.

i figure life's aint hollywood. hah, as if i believed it was hollywood in the first place. everything sucks. the fact tt i feel soo fucked up and nostalgic sucks as well. i wantttt, i want smth. but i dont even know what im reaching out for. hope dangles on a string? pretty much yeah. it teases your heart.

i dont know, i just feel sick under this skin. im sick of everyone around. im sick of this everyday shit tt i breathe for. like hey, cant smth interesting happen. for all i care i think im burning myself up with all these emotions tt i find illogical. i just want something.

k fine, theres no use writing all these shit down here so i guess i'll be running along playing with some barbie dolls or friends my imagination came up with. for all i know, i just cant wait for 6th nov. i wanna cry, real badly now. cheers la hor.

"that something i can never figure out"

Labels: Nostalgia's my new best friend

2008 is coming to an end.
2008 holds a lot of memories.
Happy ones, sad ones.
Pictures? I don't have them anymore.
They disappeared. Just like that.
I can hunt them down.
But it will never feel the same.

I've been thinking about a lot of things these days. I don't jot them in my diary anymore even though they hurt so much. You guys remember that Winx Club diary I showed? Yeah. That one. Ha... Diary tuu dah closing ceremony pon. And that was months ago. And guess what? I found that diary under my bed last week. I don't know why it was there. I threw there out of anger I guess. That diary holds too much thoughts. Not the happy rainbowy thoughts. The deep, dark ones. Sometimes I feel like burning that diary but mummy tells me not to play with fire. She says it is dangerous.

I remember I almost cried in the car on Friday when no one was around. When I thought why is there a need for me to still be alive. But then I realised that I should be grateful that I am still alive. That I still have a family. Even though they are not perfect, even though my parents fight, they are my family and they still care for me.

Hidup ini memang palat, tapi esok masih ada.
In case you were wondering,
palat means keadaan orang yang tidak berguna.
Theres another meaning to it
that can be used in a horny conversation
but I ain't gonna say it.
Let's emphasize on the second part.
Theres always a tomorrow.

Even though life is so bitchy sometimes. Theres always a tomorrow to look forward to, a person to care for, a reason to go on. Even though the reason may be the littlest of things at times, take it to your advantage and use it to move forward and never look back.

2008 is going to end but 2009 should be looked forward to because it's a chance to start a fresh. But hey. It's not like tomorrow is 2009. Learn to appreciate these last moments because time cannot be altered. What has happened cannot be changed but what has not happened does not need to be changed because you are in control.

Guess who I am.
Nadhirah larh seyh! :D

*mariyah, are u reading this? its amyraa. aha. most prolly, you arent even reading this. Dx im sooo sad. i need food pls. lame sak, k diam lor. *





FIFTH, i want to be a gd girl so tt my mom's convinced to let me go out. xP !
















3rd nov, out.
4th nov, workshop thing
6th nov, bbq
7th nov, henderson wave can? or isit sch. TSK.

fuck, u see. almost everyday out. Fishhead u know. somemore, need tt 30hours CIP. O.o




2008, the most effing bitch year i've had. so many catastrophies. (?) hell yeah. im like wayyy pissed. only one's heard bout my rantings of 2008. yeah.? 6 to 86? wow, or what. best friends to what? aha. not forgetting, countless heartbreaks. oooh, doenst tt sound fascinating.?



ah heck , life's all about ups and downs. live life or wtv u wanna do. (eat!) HAHAHAHA. diam
*idky i hav so much to say here but not at lj k done *

"nothing feels right when im not with you"

Labels: Three wishes.