"look up at the stars are fading. and im still here waiting to see u again , to be with u my friend.
the moon is gone forever. i hope ur up there somewhere. i'll see u again, be with u my friend."
alright. im bored. someone entertain me please? that malaysian person is called me again this morning. why would he/she just give up. MORON. been about a month he/she's been trying non-stop.
GOODBYE, that was what i wanted to say. but u changed everything.
I'M GONNA DIE i forgot tomorrow have home econs test no textbook = no study = no good marks most ppl don't give a damn but i do. i need every easy mark i can get. maths ngan mother tongue dah tak boleh harap
pfft. today was shit. azalea and amyraa never come it feels weird. whooooooooooooooooosh i am socially disabled. whatever that means if u die... can i have your friends? SAY YES PLEASE. kay. stop it larh nadhirah and i went home too early i wanted to stay but nobody wanted to stay in school with me didn't get to meet Siti and Fazi REGRET
and i feel like scolding vulgarities but i can't. because I AM A GOOD GIRL the only place you see me writing vulgarities is in my diary. hohoho
i wanna cry in my sleep go away. shoo
nadhirah larh seyh p/s: naughty little cat. you ae very fat
Blogged @ 8/27/2008
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boring BORINGBORING and u know what. i slept at 12pm, woke up at 3pm to the sound of my hp ringing. like mad woman i rush to ans, figured out i got headache later on. PATHETIC, i know. eating doesnt make me feel complete anymore. im sick of all the food i've tasted. i want to try eat PORK. ahahahaah, if u believe that i will, ur a loser.
i dont want ice cream anymore. the icecream man is such a heartbreaker. i dont want spaghetti. i dont want icekacang.i dont want milk tea. i dont want toblerone (GASPS) i dont want what i usually want. i want smth new and SWEET. give me, someone! before i die before ur very eyes. lame, diam.
thinking....hmmmmm....
i want:
- henderson wave with biri FIRST. heh. - cut my freaking fringe - new shoes! (keep ur comments to urself ehk, u-know-who) - my school uniform back, qayyum nye psl lah ni. tengok star, she bully me lor. *sadpukeface
- oh, i wish her sept hols free. u see, Ns are such moronic stuff. byk2 hari, take up the hols. makes me steaming mad. FISHBALLS. mymotherfuckmyfather
ehh, u arh. better study tau. i scared like motherfishing cow. STUDY. meowmeowmeow.
yes, i swear im a fake right? i lie soo much and im a heartbreaker. so that concludes that i MUST go to hell right? RIGHT. the world is an asshole. assumptions w/o investigations. wrong set of mind, when intentions were right. ------
I REALLY DO CARE. it wasnt pretence, i am kaku nowadays, really. i told u before, so now its all down to u. im trying hard, but still kaku,butare u trying at all? in my eyes, NO. i want to solve this quick. but it feels like i've lost a friend i care for.
one republic - say(all i need)
Do you know where your heart is? Do you think you can find it? Or did you trade it for something Somewhere better just to have it? Do you know where your love is? Do you think that you lost it? You felt it so strong, but Nothings turned out how you wanted
Well, bless my soul You're a lonely soul Cause you won't let go Of anything you hold
Well, all I need Is the air I breathe And a place to rest My head
Do you know what your fate is? And are you trying to shake it? You're doing your best and Your best look You're praying that you make it
Blogged @ 8/27/2008
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im now alone at home. BORED. i've not bathed but i've eaten. HEEHHH. my fever's getting better. ALHAMDULILLAH. i wana bathe, real soon, so that i can buy bubble tea!!! (:
and aku dapat tau yang _____ nak kenal dgn aku. ya allah. i bet amyraa is laughing her heads off la. drop my water face only. haisssh.
i wana seek entertainment. so i went to tis person's blog. it's all crapshits, the kind of jokes that can really make you laugh. gerek tau blog die. tapi die tak update2. HMMMPH. and so i planned not to do anything today. because im missing that someone. yes, that someone. i miss talking to sum1, it's been sometime. kasih sayang aku nie, siape yang faham. chyeahh! :D it's only a matter of time that u'll leave. it wont be soon before long. cant lie, but i'll miss you for sure. after all, u used to be my special someone. and i pray hard to hear from you. (:
pejam celik da genap dua tahun pat skola nie. hahhaha. k la, nak mandi pas tu beli bubble tea.
xx LEAlala xx
Blogged @ 8/27/2008
♥ Monday, August 25, 2008
diam diam diam. nanti maths common test. and for the first time this year, for a dumbo maths CT, i studied "hard" for it. to think i attempted some assessment book questions but i dint understand them. And this is gona be the last test. the 5th and the LAST one. I hope I can get an A1 cos it's all been Bs and Cs.
And i dint realise that all these while i've been thinking that sch's gona end, like real soon. But it is, RIGHT? YEESSSSS! it is la.. term 4 wont be that long kan.. i dont know,, dint do a time check all this while. WHATEVER. and im losing my enthusiasm to take the EOY. for a while, i cant wait for EOY but then tis is fading.
I dont want holidays but i dont want school too. oh no CORRECTION. i dont want holidays at home but i want school for PLAY ONLY. YEAH BABBEH!! so i guess tis is the reason why i entertained this (i think) mat over the hp. couldnt understand what x was talking about. x has the irritating mat minah style of msging. pegi main jauh-jauh la. i minah kental that's why cannot understand. heeeeeehehehehhe.
and sch's ending. oh no no no. I cant stop these 3 words!!! TOTALLY!!! ok fine, sch's ending and people are leaving this sch. yes, it's people, you people. and i thought of doing something for you, my ppl. idk whether i should. even if i did, would you bother? idk idk. but if i dint, i just dont feel right. idk.
so let me think it through, whether i should or shoudnt. And to you, if i did, means i mean it. but if i dint, it doesnt mean otherwise.
sitting on the rails alone, xx LEAlala xx
Blogged @ 8/25/2008
♥ Saturday, August 23, 2008
CAN YOU HEAR ME? haha
today was FUN FUN FUN! we went to JE library to watch gig got Rozi's band perform so thats why we went we as in; me, raa, mira, baa and also got; azlin, atika, qayyum and cuzzes and also got; ika, ahmad and also met fil there like WEEE, kan kan! there were like 5 bands the last one, oohlala i LOIKE. huhuhuuuuu but the library sound system SUCKED the voices were muffled and the drums, very eee-yur i don't know lah what thing break there was this hot guy azlin and raa kept talking abt too bad he's attatched kan kan? klah. shut up. JAKUN-NESS i wanna go GIGS again. AKU SUKA! anyways, ini poem aku tulis dedicted to YOU. haha i can't deny it. I MISS YOU
Take Me With You By AKU
I want to listen to your voice I’m desperate for it It’s been a century since I’ve seen your face But I remember every detail, every bit
I want to venture into your eyes And see truths but not lies And I want to remember the moments spent together The memories that will last forever
It’s a shame we drifted apart too fast Even though we didn’t last long Even though you didn’t stayed on I keep thinking that you will come back some day And this time, you and me, we run away
I remember killing hours Just so I could be with you You made me smile you made me frown But you made me full all the way through
I love you but I’m still confuse Have you ever felt the same way? Without you now It’s just so empty Will you come and save me today?
Nadhirah larh seyh :DD
Blogged @ 8/23/2008
♥ Friday, August 22, 2008
ALOHA!!! COME COME VIDA LET"S MAMBO NUMBER FIVE!
okok, diam la azalea. hahahhaha. Ignore the above, it's just something to show that i LOVE spanish. that's where all the hotties unite! macho hunks *winkwinkgrins* and sexxaye hot bod babes. FUHH. hot-ness. No, this is so unrelated to today. hehehe.
and so today, i went to school. duhh, of course. I almost wanted to pon sch on Wednesday and today. I was all drained out. Returning home late everyday, na uhh. but good thing, i've been puntual!!! (:
Reached school at around 7.15am and here's another of my masterpiece...
2 AUGUST 2008 7.40AM Angin yang menderu ku didakap sayu diriku dicaci, dihina hanya untuk melihat bahagia
Di bawah rembulan kita tak lagi berduaan tinggallah aku keseorangan melewati kesepian
saban hari aku merintih akan apa yang dikatakan takdir berakhir sudah detik berkasih bermula pula seksaan pedih
Insan yang dijadikan idaman hilang ditelan waktu aku sudah berhenti berharap penjaga pintu syurgaku.
power kan?? SPICY TAK? ape? tak spicy??!!! oh nie mesti sexy kan.. hahahhahahahha! im starting to talk cock already. oh anws, today i praised senget 4/4 for her nice hair.. rajin kau nget, pagi2 buter set rambut. mesti han bangger dapat kau. there's smthg in han that makes him appealing. dan kamu senget, aku mcm nak lepak ngan kau. even though aku malu2 kucing nak bbual sama kamu. still remembered her reaction when i praised her,, GOSH. CUTE. i think her body language says it ALL. ALL tau. :D hahahhahaha. macam paham aje.
mmmm.. ape lagi eh yg terjadi nyari?? oh yaya!! to think i was sabotaged again during cca. eh wahai orang2 smue, mentang2 aku nie diam tak byk bbual, tak semestinye kau bleh pijak2 lenyek kepale aku tau! aku nie luaran je npk garang (oh iyeke? ni fdback org. hehh.) dan suare aku besar, tak manis. Suare mcm boy.. kan ______??! tapi dlm hati, aku baik tau.. ape yg aku ade buat pat krg2?? tak menyusahkan hidup kau kan? blom kene lagi aku nye fierce.. GRRRRRR!!!!!
da shoo shoo shoo. Raa on9.. nak chat. BUBBYYEE! and people, stop giving me problems. Be YOURSELF, just YOU. im innocent, thank you very mucchhh ye..
lambaian MESRA, xx LEAlala xx
Blogged @ 8/22/2008
♥ Tuesday, August 19, 2008
just some overdue pics. ENJOY.
LOL?
i told you the make up was _____. but nvm, first time pun and once in a lifetime chance. so yeah. BYEBYE!
i am very sad because nadiah left me for azalea AWW, DX i am very sad, because i miss going out with beloved buddies, and we'll just look at each other while our hearts speak. i am very sad because i have yet to get my spaghetti. i am very sad because i am deprived of love. i am very sad because i feel lonely and anti-social but its cause im lazy to talk i am very sad because i dont get enough sleep. i am very sad because i cannot download this one song, that i gile babs want, just like how i want u. HEH. i am very sad because i want to spend more time with u i am very sad because i think that jealousy is really getting to me these days. SUCKS. i am very sad that i don't have a heart of steel. a heart of flowers la kan? HAH i am very sad, because, what we have might not be real. i am sad, because i miss you, like so lightning quick? )=
but i am happy because i get to control my vulgarities-usage. someone hug me now.! HAHA. so far that's the only thing im happy about. i love acting gay. then i feel temporarily happy. i want to feel something inside. not this prolonged emptiness. i want to be an eng-pro. i want to boast bout my happiness someday. ok maybe not boast. SHARE. ;D i want taubat, and u. HEHO
"Tell me why it is you only smile inside But when you break me into nothing"
all i want is one more day, out in the STARS. that'll be good. =D
YAYY!!! finally, i've bathed and eaten! this two, done in 1hr. My room's a mess now but i dont care about it,for NOW.
today's tiring for me. I didn't have enough rest for this whole consecutive days for this week. I saw mat 2/7 COOl last night!!! HAPPPYYYYYY!!! for ONCE, i think he looks HOT, with his cap that he slants to the left, baggy 3/4 pants and a simple tee to go with this all. WHOOOW! :DDD HOTNESS. DINGIN MALAM TERASA PANAS KETIKA KAU MENJELMA. CHYEAAAH, power. hehehhee. (=
The physical activity just now was wow, i didn't expect things to really wear me out. And that's why I'm SHAGGED right now. I dont know if i should do my hw tonight or have a rest instead and wake up early next morn to get things started. Btw, this weekend is gona be a busy one. One that I think is both sucky and fun at the same time.
Why sucky?? Because on mon, there's maths presentation (marks included man. UURGGH.) but i'm not even 50% done. Loads of hw to be done and there's hist CT. Ke-BELO-an. but it's fun too okaayyyy!!! im gona have my shooting on sunday! first time appear on tv, it's like a dream come true. OH no no, appearing on tv is not even my dream. so let's put it this way, im the one in a million earthlings to get this rare chance to be on tv w/0 any certs in mass comm or theatre or whatsoever. HAHAHA. This is GREAt bcos I LOVE DRAMA, I LOVE TO MANAGE STUFF, I LOVE TO PLAN STUFF. let's just see how good i am at all these. **grins** and and and im gona camwhore on that day too man! i hope i have time to post e pics, look out for them aite. (:
oh yes, seeing this blog in this state, sadness. the thingy's supposed to be on the left, but it appears on the right!!! GRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!! :( UURRGGH. wasted. da penat2 aku pilih skin hot pink dgn silhouttes ppn2 HOTS, jadi gini. adduuuuh. any kind souls who wana help to remedy this situation? haaaaaaaiiii.....
k la.. im tired if typing.. wana peep and see hu's online. hehhehehe. my hobby anws. haha. see u some day fellas! :D
xx LEAlala xx
Blogged @ 8/15/2008
♥ Wednesday, August 13, 2008
OMG HOTHOTHOT STUFF.
I WANT THIS SONG, SOMEONE GIVE ME QUICKKKKKKK! i give u hug, kalau org tu sudi la. XD
p/s, its just some leftover bottled up feelings. no biggie. i'll be fine.
dan ku coba, coba coba, tapi tidak ke mana. ku coba coba coba, tetapi perasaan nya tetap di sana. ku coba coba coba, hanya titisan air mata yg mengalir.
-aww, tt took me like less than a min, and its nice. kan? im like sooo gd. ppl must be thankful they have me in their lives. HAHA
Blogged @ 8/13/2008
♥ Tuesday, August 12, 2008
I HAVE A NAME, CALL ME BY MY NAME WOULD YOU? COS WHEN YOU DO, IT SOUNDS OH SO SWEET.
i reached home at 7 but till now i've not touched my school bag for any homework. MY LIFE IS TOTALLY RUUUUUIIIIIIIIIIIIINEEEEEEED! MY attitude towards study is turning real bad. I'm starting to procastinate stuffs. HMMPH. should i do something?? I think it's a big NO.
and this sunday, 17 august! it's the shooting for SURIA's almari ajaib. Ibu has been committedly watching kiddy shows on Suria. Semangat kental. Dint know she's into malay sastera and mlayu classic. so i guess i got this flair from her. hahahhahaah! (: finally, something in common between the two of us.
And oh, it's been some time since the recent lab lesson. I kinda miss Neil. OOPS! BLOOPERS! dont spread this to the whole class okay,, help me to announce or broadcast or something. HEHEHHEHEHHEHEHHEHEH. SHOOOOOOOOOOOOSH! i dare you to do that!
Me: asshole la you, Neil!!! Can u don't irritate me? Neil: Hey Azalea, what's an ass? Me: u dont know what's an ass? (shocked, dumbfounded!!!) Neil: yar. My science teacher dint teach me what's an ass, so i dont know. Me: Ass is the 2 cheeks down there. (i tried so hard not to laugh) Neil: ohhh... (still blur)
Neil dint show much reaction, totally. And im beginning to wonder if he gets the meaning to my answer. But hey, he's a filipino and i think he's getting more and more handsome!! SERIOUS! let me repear. MORE AND MORE HANDSOME! WEEEEEEEEHEEEEEEHEEEEEEHEEEEE!!! quiet azalea, cheeky monkey.
alright, gtg. hw is waiting. i'll post again, someday. and im still waiting for the day for this one meaningful poem that can relate me and ______________. and amyraa will be my target, my show-off victim. hah, no no. im secretive, i only share things with people i can trust. and i dont show off.
Like a burning candle, I wana make it through the night, even if it's killing me inside, without you by my side.
Catch my flying kiss with love, LEAlala
Blogged @ 8/12/2008
♥ Monday, August 11, 2008
JUST LET PICS TALK OK. TY. ;)
they formed a heart, but i emphasized it for those poor potek onesx)
halfmoon w/o star =/
can see rainbow? aku sanjung kau lau boleh nmpk.
PSST, i learn new word: SANJUNG wooooooo. heh
we got bored, started taking pics of ppl ard us.
there's this girl in gray, fuh, HOT-NESS. diam XO
i want to fly up there with u, can? HAHA
i think its a lil boring right. fireworks are all the same. just laen colour.
not really my cup of tea. lol, eng pro sesat
sexy payung
kiteeeee rinduuuuuuu awaaaaaakkkk.
oh, i want to explore the geylang lorongs more. many chinawomen u know!
oh, ade keling nye jgk. jadi biri-biri, tkya la u go jauh2 at serangoon ye. hahahahaha! but still <3!>
hmmm, u'll see me a happy girl again. watch out ah u all, each and every one of u! *give killer eyes.
i deserve to smile, and i should be stronger than this.
im leaving behind my probs, cause life is to short to mogok(?) betol. ah ya ya papaya ajer la.
i should be rejoicing,and ber-syukur-ing for everything and everyone that i have.
AKU KAYE YO! hahaha, mcm qayyum.
KAYE ngn probs. NOPE, no more no non onono. hahaha, dah start bbual sorg ni
jadi BYEBYE! see u and u and u and u and u and u and u and u and u and u. and EVERYBODY tmr!
bila rindu, buatpe? GO DIE. haha
aku pun rindu NADHIRAH, ELFIN!, dan ____.
Blogged @ 8/11/2008
♥ Sunday, August 10, 2008
10 years no tabs. no scores. no reference. no planning. just 10 years of playing. well, now 12 years because this video was taken 2 yrs ago amcam? bleh challenge abang aku? :D
i'm finally online after don't know how many days tau AMYRAA! :) the reason i woke up early today because i had dreams not nightmares. just dreams. dreams that are too normal. i don't like normal dreams. it's like you are living normally even when you are sleeping. dreams are suppose to be perfect they are suppose to be abnormal they are suppose to be confusing they are suppose to make your visions in life come true even if it is not the reality you live in they make you feel good even when you got what you want but you wake up knowing it was all just a dream it makes you feel good so i don't like life-like dreams they are disturbing
and i also don't like cats they are scary they eat people my mum brought a kitten home she's taking care of it for 2 days and i'm afraid. and my brother keeps chasing me with the cat and i keep screaming
and i went teban yesterday with my mother go follow her work and i finally know where is blk 60 ade satu kawan tu aku tanyer dia tk bleh harap setakat tanye mana tempat tu pun tk bleh bilang susah sangat kepe? nasib baik tk sesat. ape punyer kawan dah. dulu lain. sekarang lain. mintak tolong sikit pon tak bleh dah lah. diam larh nadhirah.
nadhirah larh seyh :D p/s: somebody help.
Blogged @ 8/10/2008
♥ Friday, August 8, 2008
080808
I shall lack nothing
He restores my soul
He directs me to peaceful waters
He leds down path of justice.
the thing up there is random, and it's not by me. so yeah. just for your read. Dont bother to find out who im referring to, im single okayy. it's been a long time. around 7 months ever since my first?? ACHIEVEMENT. (:
anyway, today's the day my efforts for 'o7 were recognised. Thank God, finally. I remembered staying up late at night diligently doing school stuff. I dont know what or for a matter of fact, who gave me that kind of drive. But yeah, I think i've matured, in a way or so. Then I went Teh Tarik with my friends.. oh and i think iced teh-o-tarik is really worth the try!!! go shoo and try wokay?! hahahhaha.
And tomorrow night, i'll be watching fireworks with amyraa!!! kan RAAAAAAAA??? and my family members too.. oh and i'm being a nice girl. I'll sponsor her food, drinks and transport.. YESSAAAH!!! i feel sooooooooooo happy for myself! YAYYness!
i wana be a lady of tomorrow! hah! but i want too! i wana work hard, study hard and at the same time, have a presentable outlook, something that's pleasant to anyone's eyes. I wana please everyone, though it's hard, i'll try. I wana be flawless like _________. and i love biscuits. idk why.. kan amyraa?? kau saje yang tahu. hehehehhehehe. oh no no no,, im getting naughty cheeky monkey! :p
And with so, I've set my simple goal in life: strive for perfection. (:
With a little prayer for strength to The Almighty, God Willing..
Setiap hari ku menunggumu
rindu membara di kalbu
kau biarkan ku dengan sayu
tapi ku akan tabah buatmu
penjaga pintu syurgaku
kaulah pujaan hatiku
aku cinta padamu
LEAlala ; my paper rose, i wana learn how to fold it, desperately :D
Blogged @ 8/08/2008
♥ Thursday, August 7, 2008
IM DYING INSIDE THIS BLACK HOLE
someone reach out to me and save me. maybe, i did a HUGE mistake. i shouldnt have, from the start
how do i end all this pain, tears from flowing down. EVERYTIME. it feels like i still need u, but then, u dont need me the same like how i do u. im tired of tears. i need a change of luck in this.
im waiting, i keep waiting. let my wait be fruitful , pls. ALLAH.
im looking for smth which i dont think i can replace. but im soo desperate for one, worse, idk what im looking for
BYE.
i hate her. setupid, kawan gini mcm? bodoh. kau pi je la graduate la ehk. GRR. HMPH. dah dah diam *that line aint refering to anyone, paritcularly NOT to nasyiba. I_Y. D:
Blogged @ 8/07/2008
♥ Wednesday, August 6, 2008
SHIT SHIT SHIT
i have tons of work to do but i'm tired and sleepy cause of the area clean-up at Pandan earlier and i can't concentrate cause i'm tired and because i regret things that i did and didn't do GUILT. urgh~
and i can't breathe well cause there are those stupid liquid things stuck there and it's annoying RUNNY NOSE!
i don't remember having enough sleep this few days i need a break.
work work work like how the toot am i suppose to know- how many dishes are there in a menu? what a toot question and there is still the shit EE thing script. GRRRRR~
better finish work fast i wanna sleep.
Nadhirah larh seyh :D
p/s: i want to walk beside you. wherever you are, whatever it takes, no matter how far.
Blogged @ 8/06/2008
♥ Monday, August 4, 2008
i saw disappointment in ur eyes just now. or was smth bothering u? hell yeah, it didnt feel comfortable to me. =/
ok, i feel hell troubled. so i cant think bout anything except all the shits thats disturbing my juicy brain. TSK. u knowwwww, sometimes, things dont go as they plan. so, wtv happens, chin up.
someone come relieve stress with me pls. anyone..? or am i just too paranoid, and pessimistic? TSK
RAA and i swear, i ily
Blogged @ 8/04/2008
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AKU NAK WEK WEK! AKU RINDU BiSu!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahaha
nadhirah larh seyh :DD p/s: aku rindu BiSu!
Blogged @ 8/04/2008
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AKU AZALEA
okay people, here I am in comp lab for IT. later on i'll be having that eng common test. im not in the mood to study let alone for any test. anyways, naughty girl wants to pon maths rmd to go shopping! APPLAUSE~! maklom2 la,, da dapat $20!! THANK YOU CIKGU ASNIDA! baru buat satu show gentarasa da $20!! WHEEEE!!! and and i've signed my name for the tv programme at Suria, ALMARI AJAIB. look out for me okayys! and the whole of 2HML, im proud to be in tis class! hahahahaha. (: so shooting will be on 17 august, a sunday with my friends and not at home! FREEEEEEDOM!
I'm quite down lately.. I MISS_________. just so u know my friend. i wana talk to you happily like before, but why are there always people to pull us apart? alright shossh azalea. skejap lagi english compre, jgn nak jiwangs heh. tapi kadang2 memang tak boleh elak kan... aku seddiiiiiiiiiiiih!!! teramat sangat.
and these days i've grown tired food. in a way it's good news, i've gained 4kg. It's bad news too, i dont know what to eat. whatever, there's always prima deli choc wafer and choc bars in supermarkets. X)
oh, im yearning so muchh to make a poem about you and me. Something that can relate the two of us.. to reflect what has happened between us. nantikan tau. NANTIKAN TAU! aku kate NANTIKAN tu NANTIKAN la..
hehehehe. aku rindu kau. dapat tengok muke pn jadi la eh. kay larhh,, today i'll skip maths and NSW english. POOF! and i'll go shopping. bilang ibu da penat nak pegi skola. die mesti da tak gesah. da mmg tak gesah pn skrg. BAGUUUUS! :D
BYEBYE people! i wana devote to that poem im gona make, soon aite. IT WONT BE SOON BEFORE LONG. i remembered telling you this. but looks like that day's never gona come..
Blogged @ 8/04/2008
♥ Sunday, August 3, 2008
hmmmmmmmm,APE SAJE HONEY. dont anyhow assume. i tell my mother! -.-, very -.- HEH wow, two posts in a day. EXCELLENT. i should be studying idiot. why cannot study huh?! SETUPID. otak mcm ostrich. (if u get what i mean) must look at the sky tonight. MUST MUST! if not, tak aman hati ku ini. pfft , bbual mcm paham. hehorrr
MEEEEEOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWW. NAH PICTURES. me and my "kwn" tau biri! haha!
Blogged @ 8/03/2008
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and i'll tell u this shit :
I HATE WHAT WE'VE BECOMED.
like come on, i just did that one mistake. that was the past.
and the future? i DONT wish to repeat it. DUH~
UGH.
give me time and space to breathe.
ur taking up all my gas. ur keeping me stuck in a moment.
i want to change, at least for u. cause im soo into making everyone happy, no, i thought i could.
but i know, someone's bound to get hurt. and i cant help that fact.
ur the cause, for the stress in me, the tears i cried. but u dont know. u continue.
i dont want to voice it out, cause u'll think im crazy.
ur definitely not who i once knew.
i mean, their my friends also. their urs too.
and its not my fault everything went down that way. it wasnt my plan at all.
it was His. ironic as it may sound, i hate u.
u made me do what i do. it was ur own fault. so now, stop blaming others.
i've had enough of this crap shit.
and its true when they say:
JEALOUSY KILLS.
everyday, i wasnt putting up an act just for u, it was real. but maybe u were the one pretending.
i killed, all the negativities, and the temptations in me. but have u?
everyday, i keep thinking bout u. i want to make u happy, but idk how. do u think bout the same thing as i?
everyday, i want the old times. i know u do too. im trying, maybe not hard enough. but are u trying at all?
ur just breaking my heart with everything u do. still, there's no reason why. dont ask me what happened. i wont share my probs with anyone, anymore
METRO STATION is my next big obsession. plus revalina also, kan LEA? huhu ;BBBBBBBBBB
hmmmmm, on the whole, aku happy dan sungguh gay dgn week aku ni. im sooo PROB-FREE i likeeee! can i have more weeks like this? OBVIOUSLY, NO!
shopping partner! anyone? heh. tmr okay! COMECOME. I MISS OUTDOORS, AND A REAL LIFE. hahaha sch life is sooo ___________. 16/23 aug pun baik. ECP. wooohooo. ok basically, im psyched to go out. escape from school. HEE.
today i woke up and almost SCREAMED my eyebags were damn big i look like an ALIEN. scary okae! (dramatic much? haaaa)
life'e been kinda toot bapak buat masalah everybody's disapointed but there's no use to cry over spilt milk dah terjadi. but i'm still happy it happened. ada HIKMAHnya :DD
mak plak. urgh. she doesn't deserve all this crapshit she deserves so much better she has been a mom for like 28 years already why can't we give her a break? she's been working too hard for us to have a life
nnd siapa2 ada kawan lawyer bilang aku ekh? aku nk tolong mak bapak aku :DD and whoever knows abt what had happened. tolong DIAM. mashey banyak2
and you. aku dah tak kenal kau lagi i tried to be patient and stay positive but it ain't helping no more you have better, much more important ppl now what was i thinking. you don't need me anymore. so i'm letting you go. be free. fly away and you can be happy. and i can be happy. we can both be happy :DD
