it's times like this that i hate the most.
its times like this that i cant find myself.
its times like this i break so easily
YES, true. but still i try to put up the best show i can give.

i cant figure out anything at all
im so confused, lost, blank, basically expressionless.
i want to rot. -.-

i dont want attention, i dont want sympathy, i dont want comfort or anything that utterly disgusts me.REALLY, specially words. DX
all i want is some bit of understanding, i want some answers but i dont wish to ask them.>PATHETIC. i want a clear path for me to walk through. atleast some light through my dark and shallow assholic days and nights. when i think, i come to a dead end, a knot. i cant come up with any solutions.
i mean, ugh. indescripable, u are too

and maybe what ridhwan said is true. : maybe i dont have a heart.
i mean, what do i offer to give right? why do ppl need each other at all? like, independence is essential in life right?
i emo, i cry, i moodswing, my freaking buisness ah. why care right?
when i laugh, smile, come lah. KAN?
okay, irrelevant.

biarlah, yg sudah tu sudah, ape yg terjadi, jadi.
im clueless,speechless, lost like on a deserted island.
u might reach me, but u aint gonna bring me back.
u might lie to me, u might hurt me, but we know its not gonna change anything, according to some.
u might laugh this minute, and then cry the next. so why bother staying happy all the way?

come on, gimme some shit thing. i need to know. i need this.
soon? nth feels a thing right now. not even the way we are.
and just maybe, the slight thought of ending this here. maybe =/
I DONT KNOW.

it ends here. BYE