narnia kan the wardrobe, this time is my room door. -.- OMG LAME. ahahaha,tkpe.

Labels: something in me's worried like fish

happy 29th July everyone
today was ok ok ah
CCA was not as fun as i expected
so yeah. lalalalala

THE HERITAGE ROOM
was like wow. hah. i loike i loike
got my face in the OC booklet thingy you know!
i'm as happy as a lark. whatever that means.
but the other two rooms were a bore
*yawn*

today was kinda freaky too
Hanis' dream scared me seyh
SERAM OI!! she didn't know anything
how could she dream it?
and why out of so many ppl him kan?
kalau Taufik Batisah ke. kn reasonable sikit xD
ni budak tu. alamak. nk smack seyh muka dia
SCARY SCARY SCARY.
kan kan kan. betul tk kawan-kawan?
what a terrifying coincidence
takut girl girl

my head aching like crazy already
since this morning you know!
must pity me
i go off first alright
don't miss me too much xD

nadhirah larh seyh :DD
p/s: asal BiSu?

im waiting for ur embrace

the way we are now makes me updownallaround

Labels: lindsay lohan - over

I got this from beingirl.com.sg

FRIENDS

It was like yesterday I remember,
We became good friends.
Taking pictures, hanging out,
Hoping our friendship would never end.
Did it? Did it not?
I'm so confused.
I am sorry for the times we fought.
I wish I could turn back the hands of time.
And make things like they used to be,
If you could only see how it's affecting me.
I will never forget the laughter we shared,
And how we always seemed to be dared
To do wild and wacky things,
To see how much joy and laughter that brings.
You are like a sister to me,
I swear you are my family.
But what you always made me do
Was make me smile,
Which made my day all worthwhile.
But things changed so quickly,
It was like something tremendous hit me.
It felt like a boulder smashing my heart,
breaking it into small little parts.
It can no longer be put back together,
for it has been damaged forever.
Even though things are not like they used to be,
Know for a fact you can count on me.

Anonymous

Like WOAH kn? :)

Nadhirah larh seyh :D
p/s: and i'm out

FRIEND
i think this topic is interesting enough LOL

whose ur friend, whose not ur friend? DUH, ppl who hate u are obviously NOT your friend. -.- *makes retarded fucked up face, thinking of tt someone (BITCH) okok.

whats the diff between close friend and best friend? does close friend mean someone u share ur personal probs and life with? then if like that, whats a best friend kan? someone u spend ur happy moments with only? EEK., dont use ppl for the wrong reasons okay ;D

TEMAN ISTIMEWA
apakah definisi frasa ini? lol.
more than just a friend? someone utterly close and dear to you? idk la eh. all i know is lagu teman istimewa itu. crapshit shutup

girl/boyfriend.
one word : PROBLEMATIC.
prolly the most moronic thing in the world? LOL. period.

TRUE FRIEND!
I LOIKE V MUCH. hahaha

friendfriendfriend. byk kwn pun tk bgs. later gossip smuerang tau. its btr to have true friends rather than many friends? agree? say yes pls! ;]
why favour friends rather than family? (applies for crazy ppl only XD)

after this, imma go thank and hug and cherish and appreciate and kiss and LOVE my friends. smoga dosa2 ku dimaafkan hor. HAHAHAHA.

ok done,and bye!
like cheeseballs, so random can? @$#!@%#!$#

Labels: HAHAHA when u hold my hand, ur holding my heart

sedap nk mampos! ;D HEH

Listen
I'd be a liar if I told you
That I didn't see it coming
Be more of a liar if I said
Hey I didn't want it to be something
You deserve much better
For the love that you have shared
I know you won't believe it
But girl I swear
That I got love for you
Big love for you
Even when I'm tripping
The fact remains that
You will always be my baby My baby

But take the truth
Baby take the truth
I can't hide my feelings
Especially when the
whole world can see

[ Chorus ]
That my heart is in two
different places
I got you in my life and
I wanna do right
But it's hard to let it go
When my love has two different faces
And I can't break ties cause
they both look right
Someone tell me what's a man to do
When he's loving two
And he don't wanna lie
But he can't tell the truth

What's a man to do
When he's loving two
But he can't keep his heart
In two different places
In two different places

I know you feel it cause you stay
There is much more to this story
But I'd be a fool to say
I trust her and I'm
always gonna love her
You know that you don't wanna hear

[ Verse Two ]
I been living on the edge baby
So I guess yea baby
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/GjkS ]
She ain't nothing but she is real
But why take her through it
When I still got love for you
Big love for you
Even when I'm tripping
The fact remains that
You will always be my baby My baby

But take the truth
Baby take the truth
I can't hide my feelings
Especially when the
whole world can see

[ Chorus ]

[ Hook ]
I wanna tell you it's over
That I ain't thinking of her
I wanna really mean it
That I want you to see it
That I'm really trying to
leave her behind
And I'm trying not to make you cry
I wanna tell you that
I ain't playing games and
I'm dedicated to receive a change
But when I look in the mirror
It's the same old man

[ Chorus ]


---

ANW, i think i hate CERTAIN BUNCH OF PEOPLE
BITCHES.

and the only thing that makes me gay is the word CRAZY. just like neil. okay shutup.
i wish for ... but obviously it aint gonna happen.
seeing you in this state really made me cry.
seeing myself here, makes me think life is more of a bitch.
BYE!

I NEED CHOCOLATE BECAUSE I WANT CHOCOLATE. I WANT CHOCOLATE BECAUSE I NEED CHOCOLATE.

padehal tadi aku da makan prima deli chocolate waffle. heehorr. donkey donkey come to me honey! :D

oh nari racial harmony day,, so i've made sumthing. sumthing alim. and warak. see below. but WAIT! dont scroll.

and sumthing funny happened in class. that filipino. everytime disturb me. n he so happened to be my lab partner. brangan mad scientist plak tu. I found out something about Neil Anthony Andes EnGAY, he loves to work with chemicals! gile! nanti heat chemical dengan muke2, sampai marah aku pasal tak kasi die chemical yang die nak main.. apadah. BUT JUST NOW DURING ENG LESSON..

Ms Teo: Okay, let's listen to Neil. Name the three items in your bedroom.

Neil: blablablablablablabla

Ms Teo: Okay, ur third item..

Neil: I want someone to sleep beside me. (grins)

HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH!!!!!! budak2 zaman sekarang..ish ish ish. nie mesti case outburst of hormones. and i realised in sec 2, ppl are getting more and more horny! everyday talk about ya u noe. And there was once Neil drew sumthing horny on e whiteboard. hai.. chyeah. azalea ckp mcm die tu byk innocent. oh yes, tmr im gona see my horny maths tutor!!! YESSAHH! thank you so muchhh Mr Seow for that super duper horny article that i went to share with my friends! hahahhaha. hope im late for tmr, then i can have more horny articles! huhu.

okay la e racial harmony thingy..

aku

seorang wanita biasa

yang langsung tak bisa

melawan kuasaNya

hanya apa yang dirasa

membuatku ingat kepadaNya

Aku

seorang wanita yang kecantikannya

mahupun kepandaiannya

tiada guna dan ertinya

jika aku bukan ihsan yang bertakwa

Dengarilah Yang Maha Esa

tanpaMu aku bukan sesiapa

Bawalah ku ke jalan yang benar

dgn agamamu yg ku percaya

Yang Maha Besar

aku manusia biasa

bernamakan Azalea

ihsan yang rela dijadikan hamba.

okie dokie! nak tgk tv. bye bye!

I NEVER MEANT TO BE SO COLD

hey people do the dance
let me see you clap your hands
now that you know the beat
let me see you stamp your feet
now that you know the groove
let me see your body move
aaa ooo gaa. ah ah
aaa ooo gaa. ah ah

okay.
i officially got nothing better to do
i wasted another day today.
sleeping.
could have done more important things.
but i slept...

cold.. i miss the song larh seyh
it reminds me of
the ending of april,
starting of may
i miss those days
rindu, rindu serindu rindunya
hahahahahahaha

i want to grab my chance to talk to you
it's been a long time
i miss your company
i wish i could go back in time
and make things right
wouldn't that be cool?

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

okay. shut up.
West Coast Park performance on Saturday
can't wait! :)

nadhirah larh seyh :DD
p/s: i miss your company. come back please.

dont mind me if im quiet. i really really dont know what to talk about. idk how to react.

i hate mrs toh. she soo MEAN! heeeeerhhhhh!
aku sedih?
PELUK boleh? HEH

the all-american rejects addiction is taking over. ;BB heho. BYE! i love my bestie! ;DDDDDD
bangge tak bestie? LOL

p/s lately i've been really empty and blank. so phm2 je hor. i dont get anything. everyone's like ditching me.? i want my remedy

oooh nooo, berry messy. ):

AKU TERAMAT BODOH

today was kind of TOOT
after school, i had to attend the Racial Harmony Day Concert rehearsal
but i didn't. cause there was nobody to wait with me at sch until 3pm
amyraa, nasyiba, azalea and amirah had plans
i also had third language. thats a valid reason, right?
so i went home. alone
reached home, bro playing guitar. krang sini krang sana
mcam pat jamming studio gitu. kan kan amirah?
i rest, ate and got ready for third language
ten minutes before the time I was supposed to go out,
i checked the MOELC website
and guess what,

makes me sick in the stomach man this song.

PCD, tetap power kan? AHAHAHAH!
i want badan like them. HEH



bising ah bwh ni. tk jemput aku. D=

Setting: dapur rumah
Time: 6.40am
Ibu: Tadi kakak cakap lain...
Azalea: Ape la?!! Kan kakak kate, baju da letak sane (pat gosok baju)!!! Ibu pekak ke ape!??! Bukan seterika da on! Pekak seyy deni! [obviously, aku tinggikan suare depan mak aku. N she was in a very gooood mood, da semangat2 nak gosok kan org baju, aku treat die mcm nie. KURANG AJAR nye azalea!]
Ibu: ohhh,, tadi ibu terdengar salah agaknye.. tk ape la.

This is e morning accident that really had a GREAT impact on me. I was sleepy and I just came out from the toilet. I wasnt in the right mood. Yeahh, e night before was OC and i was VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY disappointed that i cried! See how dedicated i was for the parade.. heeh. X) But i was! haha! And im not sure which satan went in me, and i just raised my voice at her! at IBU! nooooo! she may be biased to me, but she's my mum! i wana be a good daughter even if she prefers my younger brother to me.. so what? I wana prove to her im equally worthwhile, even if im a girl, even if im not as smart as adik. Adik damn pandai! la.. jealous la seyy, tk ya blaja boleh dapat A, tk fairr! HMMPH!
I saw e look on my mum's face, that kinda "oh no, i just made her flare up" kinda look. I ignored. Then after she ironed my clothes, she went into her room. And then i felt DAMN GUILTY. Cos for the first time this year, i find fault with her.tt's nt right. So when i wanted to leave, i salam her and and I APOLOGISED! FOR THE FIRST TIME! WOOHOOO! I was sincere! VERY! i felt it, i held back my tears(i dint want to cry first thing in e morn anws) haha.

And when i reached home after sooooo long, i had dinner and chit chat chat chat with ibu! YAYNESS! Even though she's garang like tigress,, she's a good counsellor! any probs in sch, i choose to tell her than to tell anyone.. and i love her for that! HAH!

ok la, da penat nie..gtg. I wana obey ibu also. she tell me to stop using comp lerr.. suro blaja. Azalea nak blaja nie. GO!

PS: Cos u'll always be my baby~! X)

MWAH!

last last tues? HAH!




11july, OFFICIAL OPENING.

Labels: you're my angel

it's times like this that i hate the most.
its times like this that i cant find myself.
its times like this i break so easily
YES, true. but still i try to put up the best show i can give.

i cant figure out anything at all
im so confused, lost, blank, basically expressionless.
i want to rot. -.-

i dont want attention, i dont want sympathy, i dont want comfort or anything that utterly disgusts me.REALLY, specially words. DX
all i want is some bit of understanding, i want some answers but i dont wish to ask them.>PATHETIC. i want a clear path for me to walk through. atleast some light through my dark and shallow assholic days and nights. when i think, i come to a dead end, a knot. i cant come up with any solutions.
i mean, ugh. indescripable, u are too

and maybe what ridhwan said is true. : maybe i dont have a heart.
i mean, what do i offer to give right? why do ppl need each other at all? like, independence is essential in life right?
i emo, i cry, i moodswing, my freaking buisness ah. why care right?
when i laugh, smile, come lah. KAN?
okay, irrelevant.

biarlah, yg sudah tu sudah, ape yg terjadi, jadi.
im clueless,speechless, lost like on a deserted island.
u might reach me, but u aint gonna bring me back.
u might lie to me, u might hurt me, but we know its not gonna change anything, according to some.
u might laugh this minute, and then cry the next. so why bother staying happy all the way?

come on, gimme some shit thing. i need to know. i need this.
soon? nth feels a thing right now. not even the way we are.
and just maybe, the slight thought of ending this here. maybe =/
I DONT KNOW.

it ends here. BYE

BLEAH
i'm bored larh
nothing to do
and monday no school
shit right?
my mother told me to follow bro go jamming just now
don't want sei. extra only
nanti duduk pat situ macam budak bodoh jer
so my mother and i ended up watching prison break

bored larh aku
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

i want to listen to more happy songs
so that i can be happy
but not many happy songs are to my liking
alah. shit larh
i'm talking alot of crap

twinkle twinkle little star
whee whee whee whee

and i wanna thank those three people i chatted with.
they really made my day yesterday
THANKS GUYS!

nadhirah larh seyh :DD
p/s: asal orang jahat tk sms seyh

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.;BBB You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back.
When you fall, you fall hard.

I love the last part. hah, ok diam
sounds like me? maybe. hah. diam.ok this was such a shit random post,
ive been random the whole day today! hehorr


anw, i still love u.
i still wanna give it another try.
everything, mainly words got in the way this time

but ily and imy boo D=
even if u dont love me.

today's nothing compared to the other days. Went to school early in the morning WITHOUT amyraa. nie mesti timing off nye.. hahahha. But my mood was already rather sulky bright early in the morning, which wasn't supposed to be the case.

And and and, i dont know why im dreading school. semenjak2 sec2 nie kan. I look forward to NOTHING. Go to school for draggy lessons. And i was so not focusing during science just now. I dont know what's acid, what's bases or wtv shitty stuff. How to do the dunno what acid equation.. geram2 main tulis je pape name, akulah scientist, buat name chemical sendiri. HEHHEHE.

But maths wasnt that bad today.. i got the party hat that stefanie made for me. IT'S THE NICEST OKAYYY! MS SHYAM PRAISE SUM MORE. and im e LUCKY one hu got it! X) okay shussh!

What else heh?? ohh, parade made me perspire like hell! My sweat dripped from my back all the way to my butt la seyy.. wth. drips after drips just went down rolling like no one's business. HAHAHHAHAHA. And im turning dark.. and no no nooooooo, i dont wana be tannnedd!!. White2 better.. so there's some kind of contrast when i go out walking in the dark! FUIYOO, merepek nye aku! But i reli wana noe what it feels like to glow in the dark. STYLE!

Then myra and I took 30 home. And how unlucky man! I sat with her at the lower deck and there's this guy with SUPER STRONG BODY ODOUR! FUIYO LERMAK, BAU HARUUUUUMMSS! i think ah, i really pity his girlfriend. esp when he trys to hug her or something. I bet his gf wouldnt melt at his touch la seyy, she'll faint instead! totally, buey tahan! I had to face the window where the aircon was at. DUMBO! till my neck pain. I was almost at the verge of kissing the window! But myra was worst. Behind us was already e guy with SMELLY ARMPITS but beside her was sum1 with BO too! BAGOS! At one point, already buay tahan, I sprayed perfume on my wrists and fingers. Rub2 my nose so I only sniffed the perfume, not the SMELLY ARMPITS? or should i say e decomposing onion??? HMMM... To think i endured for 30 mins, n thx so muchh, rite now im having a headache bcos of tis.. EEYURR!

TO THE GUY WITH DECOMPOSING-ONION ARMPITS: go shoo to ur bathroom, take a cloth rinsed with soap and scrub puh-leese! i dont care if ur skin layer comes off! ALL THE MORE BETTER! spare us the agony.. on no, im mean. MUAHHAHAHAH!

okay lahh.. gtg. i wana find reasons that make me look forward to school. Hopefully there's one.


PS: IM ADDICTED TO THE SONG ALWAYS BE MY BABY~! BY DAVID COOK, original by MARIAH CAREY! X)


Always be my baby,
AZALEA

i really really really hope, that i aint making no mistake.

I KNOW I'M NOT ALONE
hey hey people
it's been some time yeah
let's talk about yesterday
tuesday. 010708. no cca
was a crappy yet depressing day
crapped alot with nasyiba. hah
good times. good times.

i cried yesterday at Pandan Reservoir
it was such a right time to cry
everyone was doing it anyway
so why bother if people saw?
went home with two huge eye bags
hah. stupid nadhirah.
i'm so weak.
i'm so pathetic. urgh.

i hate my ego
it restricts me from doing what i want
so much for pride. ARGH!
but i guess it's just too late eh?
what's done cannot be undone
it's no use to cry over spilled milk

and please...
i need a break
seeing you there just makes me sick
hearing your name makes me wanna puke
you are so... ARGH!
i'm tired of hoping
dreams are made to be dreams
so be it. why bother?

it's been a long time since i've written this kind of post
hah. nevermind.
sekali sekala tidak mengapa.
asalkan bahagia.
kan kan kan?

Nadhirah larh seyh :)
p/s: sakitnya hatiku. hah.