all becoz of tis person. tis moronic idiotic fucking person. my father. hes such a toot! sometimes i wish he was dead. kene heart attack or high blood pressure ke. i only care about e money.
how i wish u (my father lar of coz) were dead. just go and die. so my life
will be happier without u. qu si ah. kene accident ke. kener langgar dgan motor car ke. kan bagos.
why am i always e main target? what have i done to deserve tis sey. i have good grades. so wat.its not as if someone cares. nobody cares bout me. nobody. im just alone going through my life journey. im just minding my own business. i nvr disturb u wat. so why should u.
i feel so unwanted. just a person. a useless person. a nuisance. who cares about me sey.if i die, nobody noes. nobody will. coz nobody cares. i feel like running away from e house. not home coz it doesnt feel lik one. but who will i turn to? for help. for support. nobody is there for me. so i cant wait to leave tis house when i grow up later. so i wont bother about u. and u wont bother about me. u just go and die can. im just someone who u can always bantai rite. do u even care bout my feelings. no. u only care about urself. u just dont lik to see me happy. everything i do is
wrong. u go study about ppl psychology lar. everything u do is set angry, scold, bantai ppl. no wonder nobody want to listen to u lar. dumb dumb! problem actualli lies in u. not me. i am lazy. so wat? i get it from u wat. ur genes. pemalas giler nak mampos. boleh kemas sendiri, tak
nak. nak suroh orang je. and im always e one yg kener. wat about e others sey. always marah me, bantai me. kan senang2 buat kerje sendiri ah. nak suroh2 org. gi mampos lar. i just dont want to do it kan. its not my things. so why should i care. im just minding my own business. just leave me alone. can? just treat me as invincible ke aper lar. klau boleh dont regard me as ur anak lar. i dont even wish to be ur anak. oh puh-lease lar.
where was everyone when i need them? mama. where are u? so wat if ur here. its not as if ur gonna do anything kan. siblings.all minding their own business. i dont mean anything to them. they just ignore my father bantai me and continue doing their own stuff. ini namer adek beradek? namer jer tapi tak leh harap langsung. everyone just ignore me. coz nobody cares about me. maybe there is lar. my sayang of course. and my friends?
home doesnt feel lik home at all. its just a house filled wif people. strangers. how i wish camp last forever. tak yah balik rumah. tats y i love sch so much.i hate going home. bkannye ader aper2 kat rmah.
dari kecik im always e one. e one kene marah. kene bantai. always me. yang laen slalu tak kene. life is being so unfair to me. why why why?
sometimes i feel lik reporting u for child abuse. but i dont dare. siket2 nak pukol. violence wont solve e problem. bodoh kape. ader otak tak nak pkai. always turn to violence. i noe lar ur belt veri kebal, veri tebal. i noe u very strong lar. so wat. u sae jer u rase e saket when u pukol me. actualli u dont. stop lying lar. if u feel e pain u will stop. u are just heartless. not only my body saket. but my hati also. u spoil my everything. sialan punyer jantan. fuck off lar. seriously go and die. becoz of u im wasting my tears for nothing. my tears veri precious. becoz of u now myhead pusing mcam gasing. u dont noe. and u dont care wat.
why do u hate me so much? well i hate u too. i just dont get it. i realli dont. i just dont understand why is my life lik tis.
senang2 kan just bunoh me. kan senang. tak yah nak marah2 me anymore.
i noe u jealous of my hair. tarik2. ingat free kape. saket tau sialan.
everyone just cherish wat u have. be grateful to have such wonderful parents. unlik me. so yeah.
i have no where else to turn toexcept tis. if u read tis, pls just ignore it. pretend u have nver read tis entry before. "just shut up and drive."
-another side of me.