everything here is still the same old thing - the blogskin, the blog name that had lasted for almost 2 years? hahha, that sembarang ah thingy.
so let's not make it look that bad.

I MISS BEING HERE.
heh.
cos I miss someone.

:]

idk if it makes any difference,
but eyy, nothing lasts forever and
perhaps all of us, including me, I admit,
just don't bother about our existence
cos things just happened. very honest yeah?
it's inevitable I suppose.
but I felt lucky back then, very happy :D
just to say,
urm,
yeah,
things have to change for some reason.
and truly, I miss those times together.


howells, we all just had something back then
that to me, I cannot forget.
I know somehow you guys feel the same.
but yeah,
life goes on..

all the best babes.
-BAA

This blog is dead.
But let's just post.
Aku tengah saket skarang.
Kau tau saket ape?
Saket hati. Heh.
Diam larh Nadhirah.

Camp was alright. Could be better though. Kayaking and campfire was da bomb larh. I love capsizing. It was damn scary at first. I was already in the water when I opened my eyes. I couldn't get out. It took me some time to figure out that the kayak was ON TOP of me and managed to get out. SCARY TAU. But FUN :D

I was mad at myself today for reasons I don't wish to discuss. I'm so pissed. Nk nanges pon tkleh. Buat ape? Tk guna kn? Bukannya tolong ape2.

Kau pon satu. Beraja di mata, bersultan di hati(cheyy). Bunuh aku pelan2, seynyap2. Pat dpan aku, wah, fierce ah nampak. Sedekah senyum sikit pon tk bleh. Blakang orng, tengok orng sampai terjolok mata, tersengih-sengih mcm chikopek bawah block tu, ketawa-ketawa dengan kuncu2 kau tu. Ingat aku buta ke tk nampak? Ingat aku bodoh ke tk tau kau pat situ? EEEEEEEEEEE..... GERAMMMMMM!!!!!!

Budak2 zaman skarang kn?
ISH. Tk patut, tk patut.
Dah. Puas hati aku.
Ciao.

Nadhirah larh seyh :D

Baa here :D

howells, sch has been boring.
oopsh? smetimes telling myself to love what I actually hate doesn't work.
instead it turns the other way round.

MANY things happened for me,
but some, forget it man.
idk, .

okay, some sec 1 malay dancers are cute!
heh3.
I talked to one. Idk which one, she seems to have a twin sister or smth,
they look really alike.

okay I hate after school rmdials. like duh, where got rmdial before schl one,
but the feeling that u have to finish the damn hard ws before u leave the class just sucks.

today, almost twice I felt like crying in class.
1. Mr Leong was talking about HIGH EXPECTATIONS lor.
so what if I'm in triple sci? I'm still as stupid as one can be.
2. geog, Mdm Ros showed the 2004 tsunami videos,
and I could imagine myself in there, .. ahhhh.
okay so crap.
but oh, the other day I dreamt I could FLYYYY !
if I really could, wouldn't that be great !

shut up.

the other day I heard one of the gendang players singing:
widuwi, .. bukalah seluarmu... untukku...
widuwi, .. mari baring di katil ini...
hahahah, dirty.
one more when we were starting to jam syg di syg:
SAYANG, sayang di sayang start nye mcm mane SAYANG?
hahahahah.
well, OMS is funnnnn.

adiosa!

I don't like my bio teacher. My bio teacher makes an interesting subject into a burden. The only thing I learn from bio class is cellulose because I made fun of it in class.

I like my Geog and CH teachers. They are very good.

The rest, no comments.
I like looking at people.

I like looking at YOU.

You make my adrenaline rush.

Because you're supercalifragilisticexpialidociously cute :)

I'm seriously blank right now. Any ideas? Anyone? I ain't got anything interesting. Everything is so monotonous. Blablablabla. Merepek ah post aku. BYE :D

Nadhirah larh seyh! :D
Oops. I farted.

people just love watching me fall apart huh? well maybe , some people should stop being so mean. i dont like liars and please, honesty is the best policy. or they say.

these days i cannot tahan cheering up other ppl. so pls, dont find me if u need some consoling. i have my own life and my own probs okay suckers? thank you.
oh but if u find me sulky or moany or stuff, pls do ignore and give me a lil space. or maybe, if it helps, give me a lame joke. preferably, about your mother ;
BETTER : say something hurtful straight at me so that u'll see tears running down okay. i'd really appreciate tht , i swear

i hate 2008. STUPID BODOH.

here comes a new year. wooo, i dont wanna be who i am anymore. maybe a more conservative and studious person. *laughs* aha, aku ckp ajer, tapi actions tkde. sudahlah, jgn harap

i dont quite adore those ard me right now. so pls, if u see me strangely smiling at u, it's plastic smiles okay. but if u terase tt i hate u, go cry to ur big fat momma okay? ;)

if ur wondering , yes i hope to be like this . so ppl can stay away from me. imma keep to the sidelines and do my own thing. watch me blossom to a biggg fat balloooon and blow up again okay? okay maybe not. HEHEHEHE

i'll only talk to ppl i want to. hang out with those i think is 'cool' trust me, my def of 'cool' is merepek. cinonehs are not a bad start. guess by the time i get out of css, i'll be a fluent brown china maid. haaaaaahaaaaaaa. or maybe, hang out with the indons maid. so i can fulfill my bro's wish. he can call me a complete indon maid. i know tts what he wants, kan kan? haaaa

enough about him, life's unfair. it sucks being a girl. period.

its just a couple more days. and i dont feel like seeing certain ppl , for sure. lagi2 the bacens. eh no, cannnn. kacau them HEEEEHEEE.

it's just gonna be ME ME ME self absorbed? u betcha. ;D

psst : i cannot upload the stupid unbeautiful song. kentot sak. tkpe. nvm, here's a bit of it.

" Here I go I'm gone, I'm going
I'm so over you, and I don't care
And I won't go back
'Cause I know if I do, I won't make it
Forgive me, I can't take it anymore "

gdbye all, lesson learnt. glued to my brain. watch me, i WILL fly. ;P

Labels: I'll find a better me

Long Distance - Brandy

There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time.
And I'm running out of things to do to get you off my mind (oh whoa).
All I have is this picture in a frame (oh ah),
that I hold close to see your face everyday.

With you is where I'd rather be,
but we're stuck where we are.
It's so hard, you're so far..
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me,
but we're stuck where we are
it's so hard, you're so far..
This long distance is killing me.

It's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, you're so far.
This long distance is killing me.
It's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, you're so far
(so hard, so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far).
This long distance is killing me.

Now the minutes feel like hours
and the hours feel like days.. (whoa oh whoa)
While I'm away (way-ayyyy)
You know right now I can't be home (ahhhhhh)
But I'm coming home soon (ahhhhhh)
Coming home soon.. (ahhhhhh a hahhh)
All I have is this picture in a frame (ahhhhh)
that I hold close to see your face everyday.

With you is where i'd rather be (where I'd rather be..),
but we're stuck where we are (oh oh).
It's so hard, (oh ah) you're so far.. (oh ahhh)
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me),
but we're stuck where we are (oh oh)
It's so hard, (oh ah) you're so far.. (oh ahhh)

Can you hear me crying?
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh (ohh-oh ohh-oh)
Can you hear me crying? (oh-oh ah!)
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh (ohh-oh ohh-oh)
Can you hear me crying? (oh-oh ah!)
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh (ohh-oh ohh-oh)
Ooooh woo whoa ah ahhhhhhh oh ahhh (oh-oh ah!)
Uh ahhh uh ahhh whoaooooohh ah (ohh-oh ohh-oh)

With you is where i'd rather be (where I'd rather be..) whoaaaa!
(but we're stuck where we are) oh!
(it's so hard) So hard (your so far), so far
(this long distance is killing me) This long distance is killing me
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me) meee..
(but we're stuck where we are) Stuck where we are! So hard! So far
This long distance is killing me

It's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, you're so far.
This long distance is killing me.
It's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, you're so far
(so hard, so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far).
This long distance is killing me.

There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time...


p/s: im missing people , but the one who tops it all is yesss, the person who called me smartass. )))))))=
ok no, i miss like 2-3ppl only. and if nina (qyyum's adik counts, tt makes it 4) HAHAHA

oh yes, i have a phone. temporary though, and i dont know how long im able to hold onto it.

im dying, from boredom. and from all this bullshit that's happening. really, i want a change in my luck. did i really deserve all these?

GEES, gimme a break. im just a 14 yr old.

im out. i feel effing fucked up okay.

GOODBYE GOOD RIDDANCE UR GREAT

i miss that person mentioned above. terase?

yes, so im alive again. i dont understand why computers have a grudge against me and my family. a-holes. hmmmmm, so lets see.

oh, my atok admitted to the hospital. so yeah, this fri cant make it. and visits to hosp would usually mellow me down. i mean there was this particular day i was playing the swing with my bro and cuz then this patient (still, an innocent cute kid) kena bully. LIKE fuck to the action kid who bully him la. cheebye. looking at tht, i was real pissed and mad. instantly, i felt like talking and playing wth tt kesian kid. knn tau tt action pisser. i mean, okay shutup. i feel like crying right now.

sooo MAYBE i wanna work as a child specialist , yg jage bdk2 kecik at hospital like tt. but but i scared walk walk at the hospital mlm2. >.o HAHA, laugh! oh, one of my cuz also want learn pyschology. AHA, great minds think alike. winkwink. ;D

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aha, lea oh lea angkat tepon la please. pantat betol kamu heh

okay about me now

lately, i've been sleeping real late. i'd get in bed at 11 roll roll think think til its 2am. see, the agony of not being able to sleep. unlike my atok. LOL. k u wont get it.

oh yes, i feel v low yest. and crying seems to be getting a lil old. or maybe its cause im empty , still. shall not elaborate. just between me and the walls. right, sounds like crap? kiss my arse.

soooo, its like two more wks then there's school. YAY.

okay so i dont know what else to post. but yeah take care yea.


Right Here (Departed) - Brandy

taufik's new album =B


Kau Dan Dia - Taufik Batisah

ya, listen to craig david's imsomnia, plain white ts yada3. okay, BYE!

"MAID BOLEH TAK?" said nina.



This was like quite a long time ago.
I took the video ok.
That's why it's not of good quality
And I just insulted myself
Woo~

Just posted to update on what I've been up to
I went to Johor again
Yea yea. bla bla bla
You won't want to know what I did
Let pictures do all the talking
:D

Let's start with a COOL picture
Haaaah. Self praise in no praise


See how COOL I am. HAHA!


Nina didn't come T_T
But there were other cool ppl like Didi


MYA!


My cuzzie's aunt and many many more :)


Her moment to feel tall :P


That's the backyard again


And we sat at the balcony/rooftop place thingy :D


And there were SWEETS.


That's nadhirah and iqa.


And that's kacang and ikan :DD


And we took weird photos. OOhlalala~


And than there was me ft. my wallet.


And me again with Huda the calefare :)


And me. Look at how COOL I am. LOL.


See. I'm so COOL.

Haha! Diam seyh.
"Maid(read backwards) bleh tk!?"
(As said by NINAnincompoop. IMY!)
OK. Aku mau CIAO.
Nak tengok Oh Baby! Oohlala~
I can't wait!
:DDDDDD

Nadhirah larh seyh!
:DD

you called me yest? i didnt know , i swear )=
seriously, yest i was fuck busy. but it was from morning all the way to evening. but at night, i didnt receive any calls. it was either my house phone was being called by somebody but it didnt make a sound. really, my hse no. may give the ringing sound but in the house, we dont hear a thing. ocassionally its like that.

OR

maybe you did call but nobody told me it was for me. cause the ppl here are selfish.

so yeah. but hey, on the bright side, ur happy . So , i shouldnt be A reason for you to stop being happy. kite pasrah/redha. ya, whatever the word is.

listen to brit's shattered glass. HEH. i wanna download songs, but i cant transfer. sucks.

"i swore i'd never fall again, but this dont feel like falling"

>Sudah hampir seminggu aku chat pagi-pagi sama itu qayyum. sebenarnye tak sangat pagi2. macam selepas 12 malam gitu ade.. lol. at least i get to sit out of this boredom. (:

>Sudah lebih seminggu aku tak contact Amyraa. Nak call rumah, takot die tak de. Dgr2 mak masok hospital. Aku ingat nak temankan. Calling for amyraaaaaa... calling once... twice.. thrice... IM forever calling for you.. :P as if you can respond now. *buat muke pathetic tak laku*

>Sudah lebih seminggu plan aku untuk makan pari bakar tak kesampaian.

>Sudah lebih seminggu aku tak blaja Emaths. (aku tau aku selenge esp bile holiday)

>Sudah lebih seminggu aku asyik blaja Amaths Amaths Amaths!!! I promise you all friends, the topic on indices, surds and logarithms will be HELL. Esp logs. and idk whats the application to that topic in life. My tutor says for forensic purposes like those you see in CSI. hmmph. mesti banyak pongkang.. korang buat question smue blh terkangkang.(iyeke?) *naikkan kening*

>Sudah lebih semiggu aku tak ke malaysia seperti yang dijanjikan. Ayah, faster can.. I want eat tom yam and have a cinema marathon. eh eh tgh wayang kat m'sia syiok tau. MURAH. 5 Sdollar only. But be prepared to see mats and minahs sejati.

>Hampir seminggu lagi aku akan celebrate Azalea is a single lady annniversary. ALHAMDULILLAH. eh aizat, aku honour kau da satu tahun tau!!!
oh yess, btw he's the prom king for this year.
Ex aku yang langsong tak tgk bola Premier League (aku lagi tau tau. haha), yang super the berat mulot and respond to my callings with "ahhh", nasib suare deep,yang suke nyanyi nyanyi nyanyi tak habis2, yang blh tgk kiri kanan tanpe pusing kepale, yang dulu bangge yang die dapat lowest utk maths among budak2 express. but now turned raja. raja kobat tak gune. LOL. :P

mule2 macam unsangkarable la lagi2 part yg die kene nominated. and hamidah wrote all those goody stuffs about him which is uh true actually.. but eh i expected my pujaan MAXWELL to get it la. sedihhh...

btw to all jasmine and cinonehs. he's not arrogant lorh.. u know hor that marcus more kuku pig ah. nvm leh, i got kuang yi to be my eye target one. hehehehehe.

right so, aku da takde pape nak cakap. yang aku tau kau nak pegi skola. ((: oh yes, tadi terserempak true friend!!! :D

lalalalalala~!

guess what??? im using my bro's laptop to type out this post. YAYness!!! errmss, i mean to me it's COOL cos' i have NEVER gotten the chance to use one before. Pathetic but true. heeh. :/

and btw, the post below,, CRITICAL eh. lalallalala~!

eh syiok ahh... btw i just found out my bro has a blog. like LOLOLOLOLOL. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH. but it's under construction. :D

THE BEST PART IS HIS SKIN FEATURES CRISTIANO RONALDO. *WINKWINK*

and so, anyone knows how to put a tagboard???

I wish my doubts would go astray
with you who never had promised to stay
Since you had walked away
Just dont come back to me some day
to know what you've felt is two-wayed.

>I think people who are self-centred deserves to live at Earth's 2 poles cos' they deserve no one. There's always grizzly bears and polar bears to have them for a meal.

>People who are prasan like the one i mentioned in ORANGE piss me off. they take people for granted. like what uh?? jgn nak eso na noreng dgn aku uh.

>I have a deep, dark secret that no one knows. If they know, Im done for. It's like offering JI's infamous terrorist to come and shoot me right through the head. I know i shouldnt say this if i dont want em to know BUT it's killing me.

>Btw, im losing hope to talk to you, just so you know. and nahh,, it's not the person above.

>the only thing im l00king forward to next year, that 2 Indons to be in MY CLASS. ((: finally, i can speak indon. hahahha.

>But for now, Im a boring and lifeless kiddo who's soooooooo lazy to go out. I prefer to coop inside my room doing nothing but reminiscing :D


If everything is stopped, i listen for your heart to lead me right to you. (will you?)

okay, so i have to make this in like less than 15 mins, AMIN.



and since fil requested me to do this, i'll do it. like every other great friend ;B HEEH

1.The person who tagged you is?
Filiana Abdurrrr Rrrrahman

2.Your relationship with him/her?
My sex partner =O

3.Your 5 impression of him/her?
Black but hot, FIERCE, lovable, byk lagi tkleh fikir mase 15 mins tk cukup nk pikir. HEEEEE

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
countless ;D

5. The most memorable thing he/she said to you?
I HATE YOU =O

6. If he/she become your lover , you will?
have sex with her everday, RIGHT. u SEX FREAK. hahahahaha

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she had to improve on will be?
Setia sikit. LOL like tts gonna happen

8. If he/she becomes your enemy , you will?
i dont mess with her DUH

9. If he/she dies , you will?
take all her money and assets =B

10. What is it you want to tell he/she now?
i want handphone!

11. Your overall impression of he/she?
like the brightest star in the sky <7

12. How do you think people around you will feel?
Feel gay

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
EVERYTHING, no tts a lie

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?
Hmmm, i'd finish listing by next yr

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Beyonce or fergie NO,! TAUFIK'S WIFE.

16. For people that cares and likes you, say somthing to them.
Aww, better make sure u care and like or love me for life CHEERS! ;D

17.Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.

1. Azalea
2. Nadhirah
3. Hazwani
4. Diyanah
5.Mariyah
6. Jasmine
7. Qayyum
8. Amirah
9. Athirah
10. Ahmad o.O

18. Who is no.6 having a relationship with?
She just has a crush =X

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
BOTH =X

20. If no.7 and 10 are together , will it be good thing?
duh no.

21. What is no.2 studyin all about?
learning how to talk

22. When was the last time you chatted with no.3?
Weeks ago Dx

23. What kind of musc band does no.8 likes?
IDK




24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
Duh

25. Will you woo no.3?
i would if she offers me cash


26. How about 7?
LOL

27. Is no.4 single?
yes, no?

28. What is the surname of no.5?
tak heran la

29. What is the hobby of no. 10?
sleeping

30. Does no.5 & 9 get along?
piss urself la

k, im sick of ans-ing the tak ke mane qns. so, im stopping here. HEH. sry, this kinda stuff is soo not my cup of tea.

anyways, i'd wanna be alone these days okay. i wanna take a break from reality, so find me nowhere near anyone. though i'd tend to miss people here and there but yeah, i just want time to analyse stuff think things through. cause i need to know what's best for me.

i just , feel like being alone , isolated okay. cause reality is hitting me hard. i cant quite suck it all in. just now, i got to know my mom was at the hospital. see?

i need to take a holiday PERIOD
but to some ppl, i might entertain ur care and concern but some, i'll just shove u aside okay.

Labels: just moving on, Not giving up

MARI KITA ENJOY!
It's been a long time yes?
I've been busy enjoying myself.
Experiencing living in new environments.
I spent 3 days 2 nights at Johor.

And and my mental health is getting better. HAHA! XD
That was totally redundant.
Mental health. Reminds me of the project I did in Primary Sch.
Good times. Haha.
Anyways, pichas!



Passports are obviously a MUST.



My ulcer was killing me. I couldn't smile properly.
Bonjela helped me throughout.
Go BONJELA!



As you can see, no beds. Slept on the floor yeah.



And camwhoring was one of the not many activities.



Moving my mouth was painful so I decided to not show my face.



and showed my beautiful derriere and fingers instead.



And there was a backyard.



Nadhirah gardening and singing
Gali gali gali gali lubang.
Lubang digali
Menggali lubang
Untuk menutup lubang



And there was this nice big big leaf.
And we cleaned the backyard as well.
Raked the leafs yeah :D

After making a habit of waking up at noon,
we finally woke up early the last day at 5.15 am.
We went out at 6.15 am and reached Singapore at 7++.
I wanna go there again!
Ooooohyeeeeeeaaaaaahhhhhhhh :D

I actually got nothing to say.
I just wanted to post so that you guys don't miss me too much xD
Haha. Siapa seyh nk rindu aku.
And I didn't want to M.I.A.
That's very bad lorh :D

OK. Aku mau ciao.

Nadhirah larh seyh :D